I was 19 and have been sickly and lethargic my whole life. I have always wanted to pick up something but never have the discipline and interest to follow through back then on anything I’ve embarked on until I found yoga.
I went for trial classes and felt fairly alright, I did hot yoga and it felt quite enjoyable for me. Then again, I did not have the financial capabilities to fund for classes. Yoga and I did not meet again until I left my job 5 years ago as a cabin crew and started a new career. Since then, I told myself to find something that I am interested and be committed in it. So the first thing that came to my mind was my long lost friend, yoga.
To be physically active on a weekly routine, I did not want any hassle. I found Yoga being a perfect fit as there was not much equipment needed. Perhaps 2 blocks and a strap? Just by being on the mat and sweating out on the mat that fits nicely for one human was a great idea. As far as I can remember, I had a good session the first time I was introduced to yoga. So, why not?
That was the time when we met again.
I joined my close friend at a yoga boutique for trial. My first class after many years, I still remember scrambling up and down, unable to follow the teacher’s cue and sequence, having to look at your neighbour to make sure I was following. Throughout the one hour class, my mind was only focus on getting in sequence and to be able to at least pace myself and follow through the class. Amazingly, for once, my mind was only focused on just one thing at that particular present moment, no other thoughts distracted and invaded me during that one hour I committed to myself. From then onwards, I started to make it a habit to attend classes for at least once a week. It was nothing about chasing poses for me. All I wanted at that point of time was to take my mind off everything. To follow and replicate what the teacher was teaching. Thus, after 9 months or so, I started to look for deeper meaning in yoga, I increased my practice to 2 to 3 times weekly and sometimes to 4. However, just by clocking in more classes has never satisfy or rather fulfil the curiosity in me. There was a lot of question marks in my head, I have been a confused regular in yoga. Of course I have surely become healthier, stronger and calmer after consistent practice for 2 years. I started seeing yoga in a new light only after being consistent. Even so, I wasn’t sure about my poses, my alignments and what’s the reason behind everything, for every pose what are the benefits, what does it do etc. Isn’t there something more behind all the physical practice? I was looking for answers but Google doesn’t give you the exact answer, everything was abstract. I was confused, what is hatha, what is asthanga etc. There were so many different variations of yoga. This confusion stayed with me for so long.
Finally, I was looking for somewhere that I could enhanced my own practice and to deepen my knowledge on the foundation and fundamentals, philosophical and spiritual aspects of Yoga. It has all along been a tingling thought but have never gotten down to action until one day I met Samantha for coffee. The topic came about and the next thing I know I was in for this together with her.
Now, 4 weekends gone and dusted. No more anxieties tickling in. This has got to be the best decision and investment for myself this year. I guessed this is a part where my Samsara takes me to and hope it will follow through.