Day in day out, I live in doubts and fears about the things I do. Am I competent enough? Is this perfect enough? This has caused in me lots of undesired consequences such as procrastination, half-finished tasks, self-doubt and negative self-talk. To put it simply, fear has impeded my progress in life.
However, this YTT journey has made me conquered my fears in so many ways. I remembered earlier in the course, balling my eyes out after being sent out of class to have remedial headstand lessons with Erica. Not because it was hard, neither was it because I didn’t like Erica or Master P, but because being upside down was so scary. What if I break my neck/spine? What if I can never walk again? What if, what if, what if.. But I’ve learnt that fear is just something that is imagined, something that is not in black and white, something that is not cast out in stone. Knowing that really helped to propel me through my YTT, and what in I do daily, and for that I am really grateful to my teachers in TY!
Although living fearlessly and limitlessly is still a work in progress, and I am still battling with inversions and arm balances, I am happy to know in myself that fear does not affect me as much as before anymore. Like I said in my previous post, I am thrilled in what is to be unravelled after graduation, and I will absolutely be making it a point to get up into head/handstand by the end of this year!!!
Tapas always!
Peace and lots of love,
Kathleen 🙂
