The Bhagavad Gita – Rambling Mind, Evil Omens..

Volume 1 chapter 1 verse 27,28-30
Be holding all those relatives arrayed before him, the son of Kunti(Arjuna) became filled with deep sympathy and spoke dolefully:

O Krishna, seeing these, my relatives met together desirous of battle, my limbs are falling and my mouth is parched. My body trembles ;my hair stands on end. The sacred bow Gandiva slips away from my grip and my skin is afire. Neither can I remain standing upright. My mind is rambling; and O keshava (Krishna), I behold evil omens

My understanding of these few verses is such that when the sadhaka reaches a point in meditation where he starts to battle within himself. His eagerness, enthusiasm and self control falters as he face the battle of giving away his habits and all the senses who has been residing within him for as long as he lives. It is like he is facing all these material pleasures and joys who are his relatives or siblings in a battle. And when faced with them, his ‘yin and yang’are thrown off balance with stronger yin, that causes his emotions to upheaval. This emotional part of him creates blind sympathy as there is a lack of reasoning and rationality. Yet again, this is again to me subtly caused by the temptation of the materialism on the mind.

There are so many doubts and questions of ‘what ifs’. This is a common situation not just to a devotee but also to anyone in their daily lives who, for example tries to kick a bad habit. Smoking for example, is a bad habit. It is an object derived or perceived by the smoker’s mind as a trend or subconsciously a symbol of confidence or stress relief. A smoker who tries to kick the habit faces with many what ifs. “what if I get the cold turkey syndrome? What if I put on weight? I have been smoking for 20 years and my health is till good. Look at those non smokers, they died of diseases anyway…maybe I start tomorrow. I will cut down slowly.”

The truth is, the smoker knows, none of the reasons are valid. They are merely reasons not to stop. These ‘reasons’ are nothing, but denial.

Similarly, for a sadhaka, any reasons not to turn away from the material pleasures and senses are merely denial and fear. Being off balance and splitting his attention between sense enjoyments and soul joys weakens him further. Confusion dwells deeper and the path to soul joy becomes vague. More senses, such as frustration and anger arises due to confusion. One becomes lonely as he feel that he belongs neither to the material world nor the spiritual world. I like to call this period a drifting period. The drifter continues drifting to and fro between both paths.

One should continue to stay on the path of spiritual growth and continue to turn away from the material joys. Despite the temptations that surfaces daily, we should steadied our mind with self control and balance of the masculine and feminine nature. This transition should be over when the euphoria of soul joy is truly experienced and we do not need to drift anymore.