Santosha

When I first came to the mat and had my first meeting with Yoga, I was a young, fit and energised young woman. I could go into the full asanas effortlessly and flowed with the class. Yoga was easy for me. It spoke to me and I fell in love with the elegance of its energy and how it made me feel. For the next 20 years or so after that, I came to the mat less and less as life happened and I committed myself to other things …. friends, work, relationships …

My love for yoga never faltered, but my practice suffered. As with everything in life, practice makes perfect. And when you don’t practice, you get worse; especially when you age and your body reacts differently. You realise slowly that you are not agile anymore and that you are not as flexible as you once were. Your energy level declines and you unconsciously get demotivated; going for practice less and less, even when you have the time to do so.

I stopped going for Yoga at some point. But I never stopped thinking about it. Finally I decided to take the plunge and signed up for the 200 hour TTC, something that I had dreamt of doing for quite some time. I’ve always thought of doing this class; not so much for the idea that I might teach someday, but for the knowledge and the insights. Something that I would not get from attending a normal Yoga class. I didn’t know what to expect, but I did know that it was not going to be easy.

Now, within the last few days of this course, I can honestly say that it has been tough on my body. Challenging and sometimes even painful. But there have been no regrets. Amidst the failures of some of my asana attempts, bruises and bumps, I have learned to accept my practice and my learning process.

Santosha. That means contentment and enjoying every moment. Living life in the present and taking all the good that it has to offer. And that was what I accepted about my Yogic presence and experience.

Above everything else that I have achieved out of this course, I am most thankful for the conscious thought of my gratitude for all that has happened and all that I have managed to make happen. Grateful for my Teachers and all that they have imparted onto me. Grateful for my efforts. And grateful for the promise that I’ve made to continue in my practice and never again ignoring the mat.

A.